At first, like everyone who’s been before, you succumb to her. You don’t quite know how she does it, but there is something about her that makes you feel special, needed, central to her concerns. Perhaps it is the softness of her speech that soothes your soul. Or the tilt of her head as she listens intently to your every word. Or is it the sincerity of her response to you – the way she makes you feel she’s always on your side, the two of you against the world?
Other people, older and wiser than you, warn against her wiles. They point out the ways she has misled them in the past. They tell you tales of broken promises, of roads to heaven paved with wilful deceptions. The lies built on so many lies that truth is a long forgotten concept, buried deep beneath the ground. But you don’t believe them. You won’t believe them. How could you imagine that those wide brown eyes might be deceiving you? Or think her gentle voice is really full of guile?
It is only when your paths begin to diverge that the doubt creeps in. The moment you express an alternative point of view you detect a hardening tone of voice, a narrowing of her eyes. For months she has had you wrapped up warmly safe from bitterness and cold, but now you begin to sense a chill is in the air. Still you won’t admit your fault. You don’t want to admit your fault. Till even you begin to catch the faint criticism lingering behind her words of praise and your faith begins to weaken, your eyes to open.
It takes the arrival of the neophyte for you to finally succumb. To allow the truth to rise from the depths where it has lain buried under so many lies and broken promises. Your fall from grace is as rapid as his ascendancy, as the favours that were once bestowed on you are suddenly granted elsewhere. You try to warn him, but he doesn’t listen. You tell him everything, but he doesn’t believe you. He won’t believe you. How could those wide brown eyes be decieving him, that beguiling voice be misleading him?
There is nothing you can do, except to join the others, older and wiser than you. They warned you once and though you did not heed their warning they welcome you into their ranks. All you can do is watch and wait for paths to diverge, faith to weaken, eyes to open wide.